I haven’t been overtly religious. I never saw the point in trying to please God. God cannot derive pleasure from our appeasement – isn’t that a human trait ? However, all my life – I have always deeply felt that someone is watching over me. My failures going unpunished sometimes, some mistakes being miraculously ignored by the powers-that-be, almost failures ending up as acceptable successes etc… I have always felt a divine hand on me even though I am not a religious fanatic. I strongly believe the little successes I have achieved in life can be attributed to these subtle divine interventions.
Lately however, I feel as though my God has abandoned me. Multiple failures, stagnant career, tumultuous family life, health issues – all going on in parallel – like my so called guardian angel has looked away now. Is it because I am past my warranty period or something like that? As ridiculous as it sounds – what if we all have – a set number of years when we have God watching over us, helping us and in general making life happen. Then when the years are over, God just moves on to others.
Alright kid, I did what I could. Good luck.