Day 9
Date: 29-May-2025
Theme: Connect Outwardly
What I Did Today
Well, I couldn’t keep my promise. Partly due to being busy with work and partly due to the fact that I have a promotion interview coming up which is making me nervous. Either case, the fact of the matter remains that I couldn’t keep my promise which I made just yesterday. I am worried if these are the first signs I have lost the plot again. Am I giving up?
I also was not sure what exactly would I tell him – why am I reaching out ? Did I have a good enough reason to not come across as a creep. I have never reached out to anyone like that and it plainly felt weird. What if he extends an invitation to meet in-person? That would be absolute disaster.
What I Felt
I feel that I go out my way to avoid social contact. I even decided not to go for a big family event. All of the extended family would see the grotesque shape of me – wouldn’t want that embarrassment.
What I’m Learning About Myself
My obesity is the death of me. Quite literally very soon if I don’t do something about it.
One Thing I’ll Do Tomorrow (micro-promise)
I’ll make sure I finish that damn presentation for my promotion interview. Its on June 5th and its weighing so heavy on me. I will also make sure that I walk for 15 mins tomorrow. I’ll set an alarm.