So much has happened. There was a trip home. Positives and disappointments plenty. Since I have come back, I made a positive attempt to get back on track. There was a loud thunder from inside me which screamed YES YOU CAN DO IT – AND YOU MUST in my head. Stopped eating grains. Stopped sugar and lost 5 Kilos between September 6 and now.
Lately, the voice has gone silent again.
I had sweet again last Sunday and my effort is going down again. All things considered, I made an actual effort this time. Saw the results too. But when the weight plateaued again at 115~116 KG… I lost the motivation.
I have not gone back to my old ways. Not yet. I think there is hope for me yet. I will write more now. Log more.
I hope I can get that voice back. For now I am dealing with that familiar raspy echo in my head… a continuous whisper of ‘you can’t do it’.